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Facebook Live Video from 2021/03/22 - Healing Pain With Energetic Love

Facebook Live Video from 2021/03/22 - Healing Pain With Energetic Love


2021/03/22 - Healing Pain With Energetic Love

[NEW EPISODE] Healing Pain With Energetic Love

With so many different types of pain, (physical, emotional, spiritual), true healing can encompass these many levels of dis-ease. Along our journey through death into life, we can embrace healing processes, through hands-on energetic approaches, as unique as we are as human beings. Join us and our guest, Consciousness Coach, Hypnotherapist, & Wellness Consultant Peter Bedard.

Tune in for this philosophical conversation at or watch the Facebook Livestream by clicking here.

Show Notes

Segment 1

Dr. Georgeann Dau recaps lsat weeks show. She introduces the topic of death and the stigma around it. She introduces this week's guest, Peter Bedard. Peter discusses convergence, and what it means to him. The two talk about the idea that we are taught that there is something wrong with us rather than external factors. Peter explains how he healed himself and developed the idea of convergence healing. He tells the story of an out of body experience he had where he almost died, and saw the other side. He talks about how in the experience, he felt bliss. 

Segment 2

Peter talks about how in his experience, death is something to look forward to as life means going through pain and suffering, but afterward is bliss. Dr. Georgeann talks about her vision that our experience after death is similar to our experiences as we live. Peter talks more about his experience on the other side and how it defied his expectation, a figure he saw, and how his anger brought him back. Coming back, his body was wrecked and doctors had trouble diagnosing some of his ailments. On top of his physical issues, Peter needed to heal his mind and spirit. 

Segment 3

Peter talks about his belief that behind every anxiety is a trauma. He discusses the idea of these traumas as “ghosts” and how they can take many different shapes and forms. He goes on to talk about how we can learn to stop attacking our ghosts and show them love instead, helping us to heal. Dr. Georgeann dives further into the change that can take place when we really get to know our ghosts. She goes on to talk about what we can do to serve god using our gifts. 

Segment 4

Dr. Georgeann asks Peter to talk more about his accident and the anger involved in it. He discusses how he had hid his anger, never letting it show. He tells stories about guides in his life, spiritual and animals. He talks about feeling the energy of his great grandmother, who his family barely knew, but he feels watching over and guiding him. He feels comfort in the presence he feels of these guides.


00:00:36.900 --> 00:00:41.700 Georgeann Dau: hi welcome so nice for you to join us tonight.

00:00:42.870 --> 00:00:53.040 Georgeann Dau: I hope that you were able to listen to last week's show, I was on by myself and I sort of put everything together.

00:00:54.210 --> 00:01:03.090 Georgeann Dau: sort of a compilation of so many of the shows that we've had together for those of you that come every week, I hope you do.

00:01:04.980 --> 00:01:11.100 Georgeann Dau: And you know it's always my privilege to be here with you, so I think you've heard me talk a little bit about.

00:01:14.130 --> 00:01:16.200 Georgeann Dau: What life is with death might be.

00:01:17.310 --> 00:01:37.890 Georgeann Dau: And I think we all have a fascination and those of those of you that know that I might have mentioned, and you heard me speak of my guest tonight I think most most of us have a fascination about what happens when we die, and I think we have fascination about that for a couple of reasons.

00:01:39.420 --> 00:01:54.780 Georgeann Dau: I get a lot of questions about that in my spiritual direction work and my psychoanalytical work, but mainly in the spiritual direction piece, and I think it's because we don't deal with death very well in our country, I think most of us are very afraid of it.

00:01:57.150 --> 00:02:06.060 Georgeann Dau: And I don't think there's anything to be afraid of and we're going to look at this tonight and what it might all mean.

00:02:07.800 --> 00:02:08.310 Georgeann Dau: So.

00:02:09.600 --> 00:02:10.830 Georgeann Dau: We have a guest tonight.

00:02:12.150 --> 00:02:18.990 Georgeann Dau: That i'm very happy, he said yes to being on the show he has a lot of experience he's been on.

00:02:20.100 --> 00:02:29.790 Georgeann Dau: Many, many shows, as so many podcasts I can't even count and has a great book many books but.

00:02:32.820 --> 00:02:43.140 Georgeann Dau: He wrote convergence healing healing pain with energetic love and his name is Peter be dog.

00:02:44.400 --> 00:02:46.500 Georgeann Dau: We did I say it right.

00:02:47.700 --> 00:02:49.200 Peter Bedard: The dark it's all good.

00:02:50.160 --> 00:02:56.910 Georgeann Dau: So, ladies and gentlemen, i'd like to introduce you to my guest tonight Peter Peter.

00:02:58.140 --> 00:02:58.920 Georgeann Dau: Peter thanks.

00:02:59.970 --> 00:03:03.720 Peter Bedard: I thought you're gonna say BT are calling me PT earlier, I like.

00:03:03.780 --> 00:03:07.290 Georgeann Dau: Being right, I was gone and he looks like a PT doesn't a.

00:03:08.100 --> 00:03:08.640 Good.

00:03:10.260 --> 00:03:14.910 Georgeann Dau: yeah so um first of all, can you talk a little bit about.

00:03:16.350 --> 00:03:18.000 Georgeann Dau: What convergence means.

00:03:19.020 --> 00:03:28.590 Peter Bedard: Sure, so the name convergence good the name convergence healing came to me in my meditative practice, it was I was looking at.

00:03:29.580 --> 00:03:38.370 Peter Bedard: I had been you know i've been doing my work as a alternative type of therapist that is very complimentary to other types of therapy and other types of work.

00:03:38.790 --> 00:03:51.450 Peter Bedard: And I wanted something that gave me more of an identity, and what I was doing in my work was pulling in so many different practices, I am someone who believes we need to make the pie bigger.

00:03:51.780 --> 00:04:04.440 Peter Bedard: And when it comes to our healing work, we want to create our team, you know that village that creates the wellness so i'm not one of those practitioners that excludes or thinks they're the one stop shop.

00:04:04.830 --> 00:04:12.450 Peter Bedard: I want my clients to be working with lots of different people and part of my process is to talk to the part that suffering.

00:04:12.780 --> 00:04:25.650 Peter Bedard: and asked the part kind of like that 17 year old rebel that I know you were Joanna George and you were Idi have this vision of you is 17 be that girl that was in the principal's office every week right.

00:04:28.140 --> 00:04:35.850 Peter Bedard: But most of us don't engage with a part of us that suffering, we have beat it up, we make it wrong in that and we punish.

00:04:36.420 --> 00:04:44.280 Peter Bedard: And we tell it to go away, we want to drag it and cut it out all that type of stuff and my practice is very different it's why work with a lot of chronic people.

00:04:44.580 --> 00:04:53.700 Peter Bedard: or people with chronic conditions because they've had they've taken that approach they've tried to control the approach they've tried the drugging approach and it's not work so.

00:04:54.270 --> 00:05:03.330 Peter Bedard: We then make friends with the part that suffering and ask the part that suffering like that 17 year old rebel that everybody's telling her what to do.

00:05:03.630 --> 00:05:12.990 Peter Bedard: The principles wagging their finger friends and family members, all that kind of stuff nobody bothered to pause and say what do you want to do in order to heal this situation.

00:05:13.470 --> 00:05:15.510 Georgeann Dau: I think we i'm sorry Peter.

00:05:15.780 --> 00:05:34.710 Georgeann Dau: look good also to grow up with the feeling inside that there's something wrong with us we're not doing it right, we shouldn't be doing it this way that way and there's something wrong with the way we're doing things and with us right right.

00:05:34.770 --> 00:05:39.540 Peter Bedard: So that practice that calling it convergence was because it convergence is a coming together.

00:05:40.530 --> 00:05:49.260 Peter Bedard: And so the coming together of that healing of those multiple modalities of whatever it is the kindness that making friends with your pain.

00:05:49.470 --> 00:05:57.150 Peter Bedard: Making friends with that past that part like you said that we've been conditioned very much in our culture to believe that if there's something.

00:05:57.480 --> 00:06:06.780 Peter Bedard: wrong, then there must be something wrong with us at the core of who we are it's not just that there's something going on, and you know there's a difficult time.

00:06:06.990 --> 00:06:13.380 Peter Bedard: It means that there's something wrong, deep down inside of us, and so, then we punish ourselves and do all that type of stuff.

00:06:13.740 --> 00:06:21.540 Peter Bedard: And that behavior is a very abusive behavior I often talk to my clients and i'll say show you treated the part of you that suffering.

00:06:21.930 --> 00:06:30.600 Peter Bedard: And you the way you treat that part your abusive to your mean to it you're nasty to it if you did that to another human being you'd have a restraining order against you.

00:06:32.640 --> 00:06:36.840 Georgeann Dau: And the sweetest yeah absolutely right.

00:06:36.930 --> 00:06:37.800 Georgeann Dau: that's right.

00:06:38.100 --> 00:06:48.750 Peter Bedard: You know what I find out George and do you think this is funny because I find out that the people that are the sweetest kindest even a little timid, people are the biggest abusers of themselves.

00:06:50.400 --> 00:07:01.620 Georgeann Dau: Well that's very interesting Peter, because as an analyst what I noticed and I help people look at, and I think you'll love this as well, because I think you work with it, is that.

00:07:02.430 --> 00:07:28.980 Georgeann Dau: When we have rage and we feel hateful because we cannot allow ourselves to embrace these ports and work it through, we don't we don't allow ourselves over many do to project it out and put it on people when we're not doing that, but it's there we turn it in on ourselves.

00:07:29.610 --> 00:07:39.030 Georgeann Dau: And now, yes and that's that is taken on an analysis we look at it from this perspective.

00:07:40.080 --> 00:07:51.480 Georgeann Dau: that's taken on very, very early that is pre talking that is intrauterine to age three or four when that is taken on, because we have no cognition.

00:07:53.010 --> 00:08:03.390 Georgeann Dau: So that's beautiful I love what you're saying, and you know it's interesting because doing my radio show and having you know really brilliant people on.

00:08:03.900 --> 00:08:22.080 Georgeann Dau: Like yourself and listening that every one is really doing such expansive work, the message is always the same, the way we're approaching it might be different, but there's only this there's many ways, but this one truth.

00:08:23.220 --> 00:08:23.790 Georgeann Dau: I find.

00:08:24.360 --> 00:08:25.740 Peter Bedard: I absolutely agree.

00:08:26.130 --> 00:08:27.480 Georgeann Dau: it's fantastic so.

00:08:28.860 --> 00:08:33.720 Georgeann Dau: I don't want to keep our listeners holding this any longer so.

00:08:34.890 --> 00:08:44.190 Georgeann Dau: I know that you've done a lot of healing work on yourself, because you were in a tremendous amount of pain for incredible reasons and.

00:08:45.900 --> 00:08:47.550 Georgeann Dau: Can you tell the audience why.

00:08:48.510 --> 00:08:57.990 Peter Bedard: Sure sure so part of my practice is to actually teach from my own experience, I look at myself as not the exception, but the rule.

00:08:58.740 --> 00:09:08.640 Peter Bedard: And I look at myself that, if I can heal myself than other people can heal, and so I created this process called convergence healing because.

00:09:09.000 --> 00:09:20.760 Peter Bedard: I started to heal myself with the process and i'm like wow this is working it's working for me may not work for everybody, but if it's working for me then there's a chance, I could work for a lot of other people.

00:09:21.390 --> 00:09:26.790 Peter Bedard: And I had to heal myself of all kinds of things that the doctors told me I could never do.

00:09:27.390 --> 00:09:40.290 Peter Bedard: So when I was just before my 18th birthday, just a short time before my 18th birthday, I was writing a moto became and I was coming home from I used to I was doing a vaudeville Joe actually.

00:09:40.800 --> 00:09:49.320 Peter Bedard: And it was a very exciting time for me, because my grandfather would perform every now and then, and the vaudeville when he was young right so many, many years ago.

00:09:49.770 --> 00:10:00.690 Peter Bedard: So, to have that kind of it felt like I was coming out and doing something as a performance getting paid to do this type of work, and I was in alignment with my history my family.

00:10:01.410 --> 00:10:06.930 Peter Bedard: And I, it was a show when I was only 17 and my parents were very mistrusting.

00:10:07.230 --> 00:10:17.520 Peter Bedard: of other people, and because they didn't trust other people they wanted me to come home after the show they wouldn't let me, even though it's a few weeks away for my 18th birthday, they wanted me to come.

00:10:18.240 --> 00:10:28.320 Peter Bedard: And so I did I came home, but I was angry, I was pissed off wow I was so angry, I was being a good boy and obeying my parents.

00:10:28.680 --> 00:10:39.570 Peter Bedard: But I I was just I felt so horrible that they didn't trust me as what I what I felt to just go and be with older people at a party and have a good time and be responsible.

00:10:39.930 --> 00:10:50.460 Peter Bedard: Well, I was driving home and, as I was driving home there's a big curve in the road and there was a semi truck parked at the exit of that curves and that lot last little part of the S.

00:10:50.640 --> 00:10:52.530 Georgeann Dau: You run like a moped Peter.

00:10:52.860 --> 00:10:53.850 Peter Bedard: yeah I was on a.

00:10:54.390 --> 00:10:55.290 Peter Bedard: photo became.

00:10:55.320 --> 00:11:03.720 Peter Bedard: yeah it's a moped it was like an early version of a moped was very skinny it's almost like a cross between a motorized bike and a motorcycle show.

00:11:05.160 --> 00:11:12.540 Peter Bedard: And I was in that Kurt and a car came up behind me, there are no other cars on the road for anywhere I hadn't seen a car for quite some time.

00:11:13.020 --> 00:11:25.110 Peter Bedard: And that car pushed my back tire and pushed me and my bike into the semi truck that was parked on the side of the road, I didn't have time to zoom out of the way I didn't have time to go anywhere.

00:11:25.530 --> 00:11:35.280 Peter Bedard: I could have tried to jump the sidewalk but I wasn't very good at those types of jumping over a curb and then there was a chain link fence, just a few feet away from that curve so.

00:11:35.820 --> 00:11:43.200 Peter Bedard: I ended up having to I laid my bike down and I went underneath a semi truck but I hit the wheel racks.

00:11:43.650 --> 00:11:49.470 Peter Bedard: So I hit the wheel racks under the semi truck and bounced out the beautiful thing is that I watched it all happen.

00:11:49.950 --> 00:11:58.800 Peter Bedard: So right before the impact I jumped out of my body and I watched my body hit the hit the truck and the bike bounce out into the street.

00:11:59.340 --> 00:12:15.840 Peter Bedard: I had an experience, where I died, I went to the other side I right about that in my book it's part of the process that I went through and being on the other side was one of the most amazing experiences I been saying this for years, and I truly truly mean it.

00:12:15.900 --> 00:12:17.490 Georgeann Dau: What we don't like getting there.

00:12:18.420 --> 00:12:19.290 Georgeann Dau: In other words.

00:12:19.380 --> 00:12:25.170 Georgeann Dau: A note when it happened fessed up you don't mind me asking, but what we're getting there.

00:12:25.920 --> 00:12:41.430 Peter Bedard: So it was the most amazing wonderful thing ever, and you know being out of my body and watching that all happened there was no pain for me I didn't feel any pain at all when I felt more of was curiosity.

00:12:42.210 --> 00:12:52.920 Peter Bedard: There was this kind of oh isn't that interesting my body is destroyed, my legs are twisted in really weird directions i'm looking at that that car drove away and wow What a beautiful night.

00:12:53.400 --> 00:13:01.680 Peter Bedard: It was October, and it was late at night, and it was very bright out, I never bothered to remember, if it was a full moon or not, but it was really bright out.

00:13:02.040 --> 00:13:12.090 Peter Bedard: And I just it was one of those Indian summer kind of experiences and I just kind of remember yeah oh there's my body and it's pretty destroyed but wow the moon, the light.

00:13:12.840 --> 00:13:21.630 Peter Bedard: it's just gorgeous it's such a beautiful night and then I went through this experience of getting to the other side and the other side was.

00:13:22.380 --> 00:13:31.110 Peter Bedard: The most I can't I can't say this more I don't know how to describe it even better, but that was the best thing that ever happened to me.

00:13:31.680 --> 00:13:48.660 Peter Bedard: And I really, really do mean that having the experience of feeling absolute bliss the joy, the bliss the happiness, the expansiveness the connection the oneness that I don't know what words they're all inadequate to.

00:13:49.590 --> 00:13:58.890 Georgeann Dau: Oh i'm so excited we want to hear more about this we're going to take a brief break and when we come back we're going to hear more of this and go much more depth full.

00:13:59.250 --> 00:14:12.240 Georgeann Dau: into it, this is very exciting Peter so we'll be right back i'm back to Georgia and down, this is the journey through into awareness and our guest tonight Peter they died we'll be right back.

00:14:13.620 --> 00:14:14.160 Georgeann Dau: we're listening.

00:16:53.340 --> 00:16:54.060 Georgeann Dau: Welcome back.

00:16:54.090 --> 00:17:00.480 Georgeann Dau: To a journey through and i'm Dr George and Dell and we're here tonight with Peter bakelite.

00:17:01.110 --> 00:17:01.920 Georgeann Dau: w for.

00:17:06.990 --> 00:17:08.250 Georgeann Dau: My music is still playing.

00:17:18.090 --> 00:17:18.990 Georgeann Dau: Welcome back.

00:17:19.260 --> 00:17:39.510 Georgeann Dau: i'm Dr Georgian Dale, and this is a journey through into awareness and we're here tonight with feet of adored so we were we were talking about your dying and moving to the other side, before we took a break tell us more so.

00:17:39.720 --> 00:17:51.240 Peter Bedard: I jokingly say that bad data is the best thing that ever happened to me because I just think it's so important that people realize that, at least from my experience i'm only speaking, through my filters.

00:17:51.690 --> 00:18:02.550 Peter Bedard: From my experience death is actually something to look forward to, and that doesn't mean that you, you know it's time dog kill ourselves, but not at all right, but it means that.

00:18:02.970 --> 00:18:10.500 Peter Bedard: As you go through life part of what my experience now is like hurts my fish there's a lot of pain in life right.

00:18:10.800 --> 00:18:16.080 Peter Bedard: Every you know view he'll one thing and there's something else to do it's part of the world that we live in right.

00:18:16.470 --> 00:18:24.660 Peter Bedard: And so running away pain doesn't work right it just doesn't work it are telling yourself i'm never going to be in pain again i'm going to kill this thing i'm done that doesn't work that way.

00:18:25.230 --> 00:18:42.930 Peter Bedard: So there are times when the pain gets so much and it becomes unmanageable at times and in those moments that's where I take solace in knowing that you know, eventually, if it if it happens i'm just gonna die and be over in this place of bliss and that's okay.

00:18:44.190 --> 00:18:44.880 Peter Bedard: Right so.

00:18:44.940 --> 00:18:47.040 Georgeann Dau: Beautiful I have an imagination, that if you.

00:18:48.930 --> 00:18:50.730 Georgeann Dau: If we do take our own life.

00:18:51.780 --> 00:19:05.160 Georgeann Dau: Let me, let me, let me, let me rephrase this, I have an imagination that how we live here is how we die that how we journey is how we journey in the hereafter.

00:19:06.090 --> 00:19:16.350 Georgeann Dau: that's that's my that's my my imagination and you know from the Talmud that none of us see things as as they are, we only see things as we are.

00:19:16.800 --> 00:19:17.850 Peter Bedard: As we are yeah.

00:19:19.980 --> 00:19:20.520 Georgeann Dau: that's right.

00:19:22.170 --> 00:19:22.710 Peter Bedard: yeah.

00:19:23.220 --> 00:19:24.240 yeah so.

00:19:25.830 --> 00:19:35.370 Peter Bedard: So my death experience was amazing so it was a strange and I actually told God, something that wasn't very nice.

00:19:36.300 --> 00:19:42.990 Peter Bedard: But on the other side, it was just me, and it was interesting because I always thought that.

00:19:43.650 --> 00:19:50.580 Peter Bedard: You know, people are always saying things like it's meant to be or there are no accidents and stuff like that, and I take exception to that now.

00:19:50.970 --> 00:20:00.360 Peter Bedard: Because of my death experience it doesn't mean that the overall concept of the world is flowing of life is flowing in a orderly direction.

00:20:00.630 --> 00:20:07.110 Peter Bedard: But there's little there's these little us in all of that energy of the consciousness of the divine right.

00:20:07.830 --> 00:20:24.870 Peter Bedard: And yes, the overall via the overall direction of humanity, I think, is going towards goodness, and there are things like my life I had an accident and on the other side, I was told I had an accident and I wasn't supposed to be there.

00:20:25.110 --> 00:20:25.440 Peter Bedard: yeah.

00:20:25.620 --> 00:20:33.090 Georgeann Dau: Another why I think it was an accident, why because you were very angry when you were driving.

00:20:34.500 --> 00:20:37.710 Georgeann Dau: Absolutely it wasn't like it was your time you created this.

00:20:38.730 --> 00:20:45.720 Peter Bedard: Yes or no so that's part of going back to that experience right did I created was it a possibility.

00:20:46.200 --> 00:20:55.890 Peter Bedard: yeah absolutely could I have drawn that negative energy into me Could somebody have been upset with me because of who, I am as a young out gay man.

00:20:56.190 --> 00:21:05.460 Peter Bedard: In during in the 80s during the AIDS crisis absolutely there's all kinds of things that that could have happened right so.

00:21:05.970 --> 00:21:18.960 Peter Bedard: I you know I don't know Maybe it was an experience that I need to have and to get myself here and there could have been lots of ways to do it over time I just chose that one on some level right I don't know but being on.

00:21:18.960 --> 00:21:19.740 Peter Bedard: either side.

00:21:19.950 --> 00:21:20.370 Georgeann Dau: it's all.

00:21:21.270 --> 00:21:27.120 Peter Bedard: It is all a mystery but yeah there are some things that that do make sense, at least in my mind.

00:21:27.930 --> 00:21:31.110 Peter Bedard: When I was on the other side, no one was there to greet me.

00:21:31.560 --> 00:21:38.880 Peter Bedard: And I always thought that when you die your your dogs going to be there, your great grandmother, you know whomever is your spirit guides are going to be there.

00:21:39.120 --> 00:21:50.490 Peter Bedard: Well, there was just vast emptiness and it was amazing and beautiful and I loved it and I was curious there was no sadness or upset but I was curious as to where everybody was and then this big you're showing up.

00:21:51.090 --> 00:22:09.930 Peter Bedard: And I don't know who he was, but it was an energy of person who had showed up and he told me, I had to leave and it wasn't my time, and that is when the anger came back when the anger came back then, I was no longer on the other side and having or wherever I want.

00:22:10.020 --> 00:22:12.210 Georgeann Dau: Oh isn't that interesting.

00:22:12.240 --> 00:22:21.990 Peter Bedard: yeah the moment anger came back because I felt like I was getting kicked out of heaven and I remember saying this, I remember, I said I said a few.

00:22:25.530 --> 00:22:31.980 Peter Bedard: I actually told I told God the divine whoever was it was talking to me, I told them to F off.

00:22:33.990 --> 00:22:35.550 Peter Bedard: And in that moment.

00:22:35.850 --> 00:22:37.440 Georgeann Dau: No wonder they sent you back.

00:22:38.130 --> 00:22:39.750 Peter Bedard: Well, that was after they decide I.

00:22:39.750 --> 00:22:40.170 know.

00:22:42.810 --> 00:22:52.560 Peter Bedard: But you know, a show and I came back and I didn't go back into my body I knew that my body was destroyed was was not in a good shape.

00:22:52.950 --> 00:23:00.510 Peter Bedard: I had shattered my left knee into little tiny bits the ligaments and muscles were holding on to bone fragments.

00:23:01.050 --> 00:23:09.330 Peter Bedard: And I split this rest open I lost all the nerves in this hand I had undiagnosed brain damage I cracked five vertebrae.

00:23:09.750 --> 00:23:17.730 Peter Bedard: I had all kinds of things after that that happened, where I had anxiety and depression and I had fibromyalgia and learn how to walk again.

00:23:18.030 --> 00:23:27.510 Peter Bedard: A chronic chronic amounts of pain, every day, I felt like I had the flu my body was just aching constantly I wasn't sleeping I was incredible fatigue.

00:23:27.720 --> 00:23:32.820 Peter Bedard: My white blood cells were attacking my red blood cells my chemical them was splitting and shutting down my oregon's.

00:23:33.150 --> 00:23:43.980 Peter Bedard: I was dehydrating so often like at least once or twice a year ago to these huge dehydration with no warning no nothing going about my life like normal and suddenly I was dehydrated.

00:23:44.250 --> 00:23:51.660 Peter Bedard: And I have to go to the emergency room and in the hospital and be pumped full fluids, there was all this stuff that was just happening over and over and over.

00:23:51.660 --> 00:23:52.170 Georgeann Dau: to it.

00:23:52.770 --> 00:24:07.890 Peter Bedard: yeah, and so I had to heal myself, because the doctors were amazing and putting my bones back together, but after that all that other stuff they had no idea what to do with me I didn't have a form of cancer, but my white blood cells were were attacking.

00:24:08.520 --> 00:24:22.650 Peter Bedard: Right why but it wasn't cancer, they had there wasn't cancer, why was that happening, why was my hemoglobin splitting and shutting down my organs, why was it hydrating, why was I fatigue so much why I mean I know why I was depressed and anxious.

00:24:25.830 --> 00:24:34.380 Peter Bedard: Right, so the doctors just kept giving me more of what they knew how to do they kept offering me more surgeries and they kept offering me more pharmaceuticals.

00:24:34.710 --> 00:24:44.820 Peter Bedard: Well, I didn't want more surgeries because the surgery, they did was the top surgery at the time, there was no other no other surgery above that.

00:24:45.660 --> 00:24:57.090 Peter Bedard: And the pharmaceuticals were like the surgeries where this might help we don't know if it's going to but it might I wasn't interested in taking all these drugs with the out of the side effects and all that kind of stuff.

00:24:57.600 --> 00:25:09.330 Peter Bedard: for something that might be able to help me, and so I just I was in chronic chronic pain for years I was disconnected from my body I disconnected from my emotions, in order to survive.

00:25:09.840 --> 00:25:22.320 Peter Bedard: And so, this process that I started to do on myself that I feel was divinely guided we information would come in somebody would say something or I would hear something or something would come into my meditations or whatever.

00:25:22.530 --> 00:25:36.840 Peter Bedard: And I would just do stuff and I stumbled from one holistic practice into the other and I eventually healed myself, I can try, if somebody said hey I have this this guy that does this really weird cookie thing I want you to go try it i'm like okay.

00:25:38.130 --> 00:25:40.650 Peter Bedard: right because I didn't have any other options.

00:25:41.220 --> 00:25:50.430 Peter Bedard: And so I even created a little show where I started recording all these people that were these holistic practitioners about what they did and put it on YouTube right so.

00:25:50.820 --> 00:25:59.130 Peter Bedard: I was using myself as a guinea pig and in the 90s, they started in line 90s 2000s they started creating what they called the whole list or the.

00:26:00.030 --> 00:26:10.830 Peter Bedard: The drug cocktail or the pharmaceutical cocktail for cancer for HIV for that type of stuff right mixing different drugs and I thought, what if I actually started mixing my holistic practices.

00:26:11.280 --> 00:26:19.740 Peter Bedard: What if I started understanding people talk about body mind and spirit but does anybody really know how to apply it, or what it really means.

00:26:20.670 --> 00:26:27.870 Peter Bedard: And so I didn't and I was kind of like well I started to see my wounds as there's obvious physical wound.

00:26:28.170 --> 00:26:40.680 Peter Bedard: But there was a mental wound my mind was in panic, it was in fear it was in constant worry, am I going to be able to go to work tomorrow because tonight I can't I can't even get off the couch because my legs hurt so much.

00:26:40.980 --> 00:26:50.010 Peter Bedard: Am I going to be able to go to work what's going to happen, am I going to be able to pay my rent when I when I couldn't get anything, and then the other thing was my heart was broke.

00:26:50.490 --> 00:26:57.990 Peter Bedard: You know I had a trajectory in my life, where I thought I was going to be a professional dancer and that was taken away from me who am I, where do I go.

00:26:59.100 --> 00:27:05.640 Peter Bedard: So I started to apply this healing body mind and spirit and that became part of the convergence healing process.

00:27:05.730 --> 00:27:20.070 Georgeann Dau: wow that's beautiful really beautiful it's funny Peter, you know, because everyone that comes before me, is just like a different part of me it's really interesting find this all the time and.

00:27:21.690 --> 00:27:40.890 Georgeann Dau: I I went on, and I got um I have a master's degree in nutrition, I have a naturopathic degree in a holistic medicine and the psycho spiritual peace and way before my time, you know, like you, saying, putting all of this together.

00:27:42.270 --> 00:27:49.500 Georgeann Dau: Mind body spirit, you know, in a clinic that I started in 1982 i'm an old girl i'm much older than you.

00:27:50.250 --> 00:27:59.460 Georgeann Dau: and out of me having scoliosis I lived with a deformity for 14 years and I had my whole spine reconstructed.

00:28:00.300 --> 00:28:14.280 Georgeann Dau: So it's very interesting because you know, here we are, you know and we'll have to stay in touch for sure, and maybe you'll come back on again, but maybe we can border a session together.

00:28:14.610 --> 00:28:15.120 Georgeann Dau: I love to.

00:28:15.540 --> 00:28:15.930 Peter Bedard: work with.

00:28:15.990 --> 00:28:30.750 Georgeann Dau: i'd love i'd love to share mine with you, too, so we'll be right back i'm going to take a quick break with Peter petard journey through into awareness we'll be right back thanks for joining us tonight.

00:28:32.670 --> 00:28:35.040 Peter Bedard: are listening to talk radio.

00:31:24.480 --> 00:31:35.130 Georgeann Dau: Welcome back to a journey through into awareness tonight, our show is with pita pit boyd and, just in case you don't know i'm Dr George and.

00:31:36.510 --> 00:31:37.860 Georgeann Dau: i'm having so much fun tonight.

00:31:40.320 --> 00:31:40.860 So.

00:31:42.240 --> 00:31:44.340 Georgeann Dau: So i'm Peter so.

00:31:45.660 --> 00:31:47.400 Georgeann Dau: I know that you've said.

00:31:48.480 --> 00:31:49.320 Georgeann Dau: That.

00:31:54.300 --> 00:31:57.120 Georgeann Dau: behind every anxieties a trauma.

00:32:00.210 --> 00:32:04.860 Georgeann Dau: I don't disagree with you, not that I need to agree or disagree, but.

00:32:06.720 --> 00:32:07.140 Georgeann Dau: But.

00:32:08.190 --> 00:32:10.560 Georgeann Dau: um you, you say, if I could.

00:32:11.580 --> 00:32:18.930 Georgeann Dau: quote you that it's like a ghost way to find its way back home, can you tell me more about that I love that expression.

00:32:19.740 --> 00:32:29.250 Peter Bedard: So I use a lot of metaphor in my practice I tell stories and people seem to really resonate with that so people are having.

00:32:29.700 --> 00:32:40.080 Peter Bedard: People come to me oftentimes their doctor referred they're having they're getting their anxiety treated in other ways, and then the doctors like I don't know what to do with you, basically, so, then they said.

00:32:40.440 --> 00:32:42.060 Georgeann Dau: isn't that always the way yeah.

00:32:44.490 --> 00:32:50.610 Peter Bedard: And so i'm sitting down with people, and I will talk about these anxieties and i'll say.

00:32:50.880 --> 00:32:59.250 Peter Bedard: there's experiences that are shoved down there layered and layered and layered and then they're just shoved down we don't deal with it mentally we don't deal with it spiritually.

00:32:59.670 --> 00:33:10.650 Peter Bedard: In our hearts right we ignore it, we don't know how is too scary we've shut them down and because of all that pressure being shoved down and layered over the years, they sneak out sideways.

00:33:11.310 --> 00:33:24.360 Peter Bedard: And so I say these experiences they're not happening in this moment I I like talking to you, George and i'm like there's no trauma happening right now right we're having fun This is great hey you know you're adorable it is cool.

00:33:24.810 --> 00:33:35.280 Peter Bedard: And yeah there's this stuff that still in the background, potentially, and so that stuff in the background, is what I call ghost and they can come to this present moment at any time.

00:33:36.210 --> 00:33:38.160 Peter Bedard: Something can trigger and boom.

00:33:38.190 --> 00:33:48.780 Peter Bedard: There it is right in front of us right So those are the ghosts they say this ghost isn't from this moment in time it's not happening right now, but it thinks it's still alive.

00:33:50.130 --> 00:33:54.360 Peter Bedard: So we need to teach the ghost to find its way back in history.

00:33:55.260 --> 00:34:03.090 Peter Bedard: So that means that, instead of running away from the ghost instead of wanting to drag it or do that type of thing we actually need to talk to the ghost.

00:34:03.660 --> 00:34:14.880 Peter Bedard: We need to actually figure out what it wants, what it needs, what can we do, and you know ghost hunters and all those kind of ghost things are so popular right now that people kind of go oh okay yeah.

00:34:15.150 --> 00:34:27.300 Peter Bedard: they've seen some show where they talked to the ghost or something like that right, and so we start talking to this part of us, that is, that has gone through this trauma that is this ghost experience.

00:34:27.690 --> 00:34:30.840 Peter Bedard: And we started saying what do you need goes to in order to heal.

00:34:31.470 --> 00:34:43.350 Peter Bedard: And that's when we bring those questions of body mind spirit, what do you need physically that I can help you with that's going to allow you to heal express your emotion that trapped feeling whatever it is.

00:34:43.650 --> 00:34:48.750 Peter Bedard: What do you need mentally, what do you need to say that maybe you never allowed yourself to say.

00:34:49.050 --> 00:34:59.130 Peter Bedard: What do you mean spiritually and again that's part of that convergence because i'm not the one stop shop and that person that ghost that might need to go to a nutritionist it might need to go to a.

00:34:59.400 --> 00:35:10.620 Peter Bedard: more of a psycho therapist an analyst I get my need to go to a dream interpreter it might need to go to a physical trainer because that person doesn't know how to move in a way that is beneficial to them right.

00:35:11.100 --> 00:35:19.530 Peter Bedard: So we talked to these NGOs ask them what they need, we asked them based on these three questions, what do you need physically mentally and spiritually.

00:35:19.770 --> 00:35:29.580 Peter Bedard: And we start to create that recipe or that holistic cocktail for that person's healing, but these ghosts are amazing and they have so much to tell us.

00:35:30.090 --> 00:35:38.220 Peter Bedard: They have so much wisdom they've survived very difficult experiences and so when we actually.

00:35:38.580 --> 00:35:53.370 Peter Bedard: I call it befriending the disease right or loving your pain my for a while there I had this strong long string of working with cancer clients and my cancer clients taught me that they needed to love their tumors.

00:35:54.510 --> 00:36:05.130 Peter Bedard: Right, the tumor was a part of them, that is suffering, just like someone's anxiety, just like someone's physical pain, whatever it is it's a part of them that suffering.

00:36:05.550 --> 00:36:14.490 Peter Bedard: Instead of bullying it like we talked about in the beginning, instead of pushing it away or dragging it What would it be like the pause and give it love.

00:36:15.360 --> 00:36:30.300 Peter Bedard: What would it be like to shower that part of us and suffering that anxiety that trauma that goes that that little girl that may have been abused at five years old, or that boy that was abused at 10 years old right What would it be like to go to that part.

00:36:30.810 --> 00:36:44.430 Peter Bedard: and say i'm so sorry, nobody talked to you about this, nobody explained what was going on let's have a conversation, and what can I do to help, and I am going to shower you in love.

00:36:45.030 --> 00:36:54.960 Peter Bedard: And when we understand what love is I do some a lot of medical imagery of gnosis type of work, too, and when we enlist the brain and understanding the concept like luck.

00:36:55.560 --> 00:37:03.990 Peter Bedard: Well, we feel love that we really understand it from a brain point of view, not from an awareness point of view, but the brain brains tools.

00:37:04.260 --> 00:37:10.200 Peter Bedard: Are color and temperature and texture and sound and smell and taste right all the different parts of the brain right.

00:37:10.710 --> 00:37:20.580 Peter Bedard: When we can say, well, what is the color of love to you and then i'm just going to pick I like gold is going to be like this golden sparkling ball of light right so.

00:37:21.060 --> 00:37:41.010 Peter Bedard: What if you shared that golden sparkling ball of light that moves and vibrates and as energy and it hums or there's a sound or something to it there's maybe a warm or a temperature to it, of some sort What if we poured that love into that part, that is, the ghost or that part that suffering.

00:37:42.090 --> 00:37:51.360 Peter Bedard: And you could try it right now right think about what is the thing about the texture and the temperature of love, as you know it in your brain not anybody else's.

00:37:52.110 --> 00:37:57.990 Peter Bedard: what's the temperature and the texture and now put that temperature and texture into that part of you that was hurting.

00:37:58.830 --> 00:38:05.640 Peter Bedard: And notice what happens that's neuro linguistic programming and I take it, even bigger into more of the imagery in hypnosis type of work.

00:38:06.000 --> 00:38:16.020 Peter Bedard: But when we start beating these parts of us up and we started bringing them love well I don't know about you, but I when I feel loved I can do things I never thought I could do.

00:38:16.080 --> 00:38:22.050 Georgeann Dau: Sure that's right beautiful, we are love, we come from love were created in love right.

00:38:22.350 --> 00:38:24.390 Georgeann Dau: I just from the creator yeah.

00:38:24.750 --> 00:38:46.050 Georgeann Dau: We are that so when we're not in that we feel disconnected disconnected from ourselves not that we are, but we can feel that way you know it's interesting PD because you know in analysis we talk about this this disconnect this ghost.

00:38:47.280 --> 00:38:53.880 Georgeann Dau: That we look at it, that it is the pre talking part of yourself that.

00:38:55.170 --> 00:38:59.070 Georgeann Dau: Out of no one's fault went up blaming any anyone that.

00:39:00.180 --> 00:39:11.730 Georgeann Dau: How we will make you feel about ourselves pre talking before we add words before we could understand, even if someone would come and say to us, you know I really didn't mean it or.

00:39:12.810 --> 00:39:24.510 Georgeann Dau: What happened to us how we were made to feel in those moments, we will because we didn't have words then we're not going to have words now, so the only way we can meet them in the now.

00:39:25.140 --> 00:39:39.900 Georgeann Dau: Is through the feeling exactly so when we when we engage together myself and my patient with the feeling in the contemporary world because the contemporary life will trigger that.

00:39:41.160 --> 00:39:53.520 Georgeann Dau: that's where it comes from it'll trigger it it doesn't come from the now people like to say Oh, you know you just made me feel the feeling was India right right so.

00:39:55.140 --> 00:40:03.660 Georgeann Dau: When we're able to exactly what you're saying when we're able to connect with that re experience it embrace it gets to know it.

00:40:05.010 --> 00:40:13.950 Georgeann Dau: and love it into peace it's amazing the change that can take place, it is awesome.

00:40:15.030 --> 00:40:15.510 Georgeann Dau: awesome.

00:40:16.770 --> 00:40:18.840 Georgeann Dau: I can tell, we both love what we do.

00:40:20.460 --> 00:40:22.350 Peter Bedard: I absolutely love what I.

00:40:22.350 --> 00:40:23.400 Georgeann Dau: Do sell.

00:40:23.430 --> 00:40:25.560 Peter Bedard: me to have been part of my gift, you know.

00:40:25.980 --> 00:40:30.540 Peter Bedard: yeah and I I call it again the golden the garbage.

00:40:31.080 --> 00:40:40.170 Peter Bedard: Because I could look at my past, and I can look at all the garbage of my past of being slammed in the semi truck the decades of pain.

00:40:40.470 --> 00:40:46.440 Peter Bedard: The wandering around not knowing my life purpose, not knowing what to do with myself feeling despair.

00:40:46.860 --> 00:40:59.580 Peter Bedard: and depression and those types of things struggling to pay the bills all that type of stuff right, I can look at that stuff now and I could actually blessed that causation moment that moment of being slammed in the semi truck.

00:41:00.210 --> 00:41:05.310 Peter Bedard: I can bless that moment and i'm no longer a victim to it because I forgiven it.

00:41:05.910 --> 00:41:14.460 Peter Bedard: And it no longer controls me, and I can talk about it in a way that i'm no longer connected to the experience it's part of my story.

00:41:14.880 --> 00:41:32.490 Peter Bedard: it's the garbage but from that garbage came this gold, of being able to have conversations like this with people like you and being able to see in the clients that I see right and to write my book, and to do that kind of stuff none of that would have happened, had it not been for that.

00:41:32.520 --> 00:41:34.020 Georgeann Dau: moment absolutely.

00:41:34.080 --> 00:41:35.580 Peter Bedard: So I would never change that.

00:41:35.820 --> 00:41:49.890 Georgeann Dau: Right God uses everything and had I not had my wound, and you know your wound we wouldn't be doing what we do now, because really and I spoke about this last night on my show last week.

00:41:50.580 --> 00:41:59.760 Georgeann Dau: That we're all here as servants we're here to serve one another, life is not about me my life is not about me.

00:42:00.930 --> 00:42:12.420 Georgeann Dau: Right Peters life isn't about Peter it's about what who we are not as a definition, because who we are, as loving Christ in God.

00:42:15.210 --> 00:42:31.350 Georgeann Dau: What what we're able to do with the gifts we've been given to serve to continue to build god's Kingdom because God continues to create what God created in the first place, and we are God sense or mind eyes.

00:42:33.120 --> 00:42:33.540 Georgeann Dau: All of it.

00:42:34.110 --> 00:42:50.370 Peter Bedard: I like to say the gods the ocean God is the ocean, it is the vastness and God is that perfect health God is joy love abundance prosperity and we need to remember that we come from the ocean, we may be a drop.

00:42:50.970 --> 00:43:00.000 Peter Bedard: We may be a little tiny drop to the vastness of that ocean ready, we are the same, we are of the same experience.

00:43:00.330 --> 00:43:03.690 Georgeann Dau: Absolutely absolutely and.

00:43:05.340 --> 00:43:11.460 Georgeann Dau: I I like to say I don't know where I got this from like I can't take credit for it, but we.

00:43:13.290 --> 00:43:22.230 Georgeann Dau: got is everything in everything we are always in God us asking where God is is like a fish asking where the water is.

00:43:22.320 --> 00:43:30.600 Georgeann Dau: Exactly, and on that note we're going to be right back we're going to take a brief break we'll be right back with our guest Peter petard be right.

00:45:52.830 --> 00:45:55.200 Georgeann Dau: Okay welcome back with beautiful boys tonight.

00:45:56.490 --> 00:45:59.070 Georgeann Dau: A journey through into awareness.

00:46:00.180 --> 00:46:01.410 Georgeann Dau: So Peter.

00:46:05.070 --> 00:46:21.150 Georgeann Dau: I have someone listening tonight, and he had a near death experience and he's been anxious for the show, he was in a car, he was a passenger right before.

00:46:23.820 --> 00:46:28.950 Georgeann Dau: The crash he really got hurt you know muscle justice anyway.

00:46:30.060 --> 00:46:33.960 Georgeann Dau: um right before the crash he heard.

00:46:35.100 --> 00:46:39.240 Georgeann Dau: Put your seatbelt on put your seatbelt on put your seatbelt on and he didn't.

00:46:40.380 --> 00:46:43.170 Georgeann Dau: I really believe that.

00:46:44.460 --> 00:47:02.910 Georgeann Dau: We have guides and that were guided and that were spoken to all the time through us and I experienced that um I didn't know ways, it has God has spoken to me about it, I have, I recognize it now, more than i've ever have.

00:47:07.050 --> 00:47:18.990 Georgeann Dau: To you, experience any of that for yourself, or you know when you were on the on the little moped and driving fast yeah you smiling, can you talk about that.

00:47:19.620 --> 00:47:23.880 Peter Bedard: All right, well, first I wasn't driving fast, I was only driving 25 miles an hour.

00:47:24.750 --> 00:47:25.320 Georgeann Dau: that's right.

00:47:25.500 --> 00:47:26.670 Georgeann Dau: isn't that interesting.

00:47:26.880 --> 00:47:27.750 Georgeann Dau: How why.

00:47:28.650 --> 00:47:31.650 Georgeann Dau: correlate anger with driving fast.

00:47:32.070 --> 00:47:32.970 Peter Bedard: yeah I wasn't.

00:47:33.660 --> 00:47:36.000 Georgeann Dau: That was my stuff everybody.

00:47:37.080 --> 00:47:37.890 Peter Bedard: I, but I was.

00:47:39.630 --> 00:47:45.360 Peter Bedard: I was a different type of anger, I wish to type anger that I see a lot of my clients, which is why I can recognize it.

00:47:45.840 --> 00:48:00.840 Peter Bedard: I was the type of now i'm much more verbal and expressive about my anger, but in the past, I was just I was gripping onto the bike and I was driving and I was the type of kid that you never would have known was angry.

00:48:01.470 --> 00:48:06.090 Peter Bedard: I was a type of kid that when I was in high school, who is suicidal you never would have known.

00:48:06.360 --> 00:48:23.520 Peter Bedard: That he was suicidal there was always a smile on my face everything was always good everything was great I was doing my thing I was living the life I was that type of person that the anger was inside and it was imploding inside but you never would have seen it on the outside.

00:48:25.020 --> 00:48:37.170 Peter Bedard: And a lot of my clients are that way that I love that you have that comment about your client being a bit of a reflection of you right now, these clients come in and my gosh you're so angry and they're like What do you mean.

00:48:38.490 --> 00:48:51.600 Peter Bedard: And i'm like I know because I bet there I hit the ice that right so about the guides I absolutely believe that we are surrounded by goodness.

00:48:51.990 --> 00:48:59.760 Peter Bedard: Absolutely, and we are in this physical world where people have free will to do things and I don't particularly believe in evil.

00:49:00.150 --> 00:49:06.480 Peter Bedard: I don't believe in the devil or evil those types of things I think people distance themselves from the divine.

00:49:07.440 --> 00:49:16.590 Peter Bedard: And as they distance themselves from the divine then they do things that we may call evil bad or wrong or that type of thing but there isn't.

00:49:16.950 --> 00:49:30.720 Peter Bedard: You know that now, I have seen energies that are dark energies i've seen them i've experienced them they've been right in front of me someone might call it a devil or a demon i've seen those types of things.

00:49:31.110 --> 00:49:44.070 Peter Bedard: But I don't look at them in that way, they are energies that have removed themselves or just have been so hurt or wounded that they forgot their divinity that's how I look.

00:49:45.570 --> 00:49:51.810 Peter Bedard: So, as far as us having energies or spirits or guys are absolutely I.

00:49:52.380 --> 00:50:01.890 Peter Bedard: Even before I was willing to understand or look at that part of me people used to tell me that I have these huge angels one on either side.

00:50:02.340 --> 00:50:15.510 Peter Bedard: Like right here like these massive tall angels, that would be with me and then I would have this like charity angel and these three were always around me and always with and i'm like I don't know what you're talking about.

00:50:17.070 --> 00:50:23.490 Peter Bedard: And then, all of a sudden, I used to organize these fundraisers not the be with psychics raising money for animal rescue.

00:50:23.880 --> 00:50:29.580 Peter Bedard: And people would get a 15 minute reading and donate and the money will go to the animal rescue this ideas we donate their time.

00:50:29.970 --> 00:50:34.020 Peter Bedard: And I love psychics I have lots of friends or psyches but I never really gone to that.

00:50:34.620 --> 00:50:39.090 Peter Bedard: it's not something they're just my friends you happen to do that, so my gay friends come together right.

00:50:39.540 --> 00:50:52.530 Peter Bedard: And then every now and then one of them will come up to me or new person would come into the group is we needed a replacement or something like that and they'd be like you know you have these big giant angels right like yeah I have these big goals.

00:50:53.970 --> 00:51:04.410 Peter Bedard: And, at one point I commissioned an art show and I had all these different artists working during the gift show, and nobody needs to know what that is, but during the gift show and.

00:51:05.100 --> 00:51:16.170 Peter Bedard: This one guy at the end he was painting the whole time it was in seven days show, he was painting the whole time and he actually gave me the painting that he was painting, and it was of this golden sphere.

00:51:17.220 --> 00:51:26.760 Peter Bedard: This golden ball of light and one of the angels had his hand out, it was holding the ball, the one I was on either side, and there was this little chair of in the corner.

00:51:26.790 --> 00:51:27.750 Georgeann Dau: Of funny.

00:51:28.680 --> 00:51:29.850 Peter Bedard: Okay, I hear you.

00:51:31.440 --> 00:51:33.540 Peter Bedard: I knowledge presence.

00:51:35.250 --> 00:51:45.570 Peter Bedard: Right, and I think we have an animal guides to I think we have different I absolutely believe that my dog, who is kind of like you know Harry Potter had his owl.

00:51:46.500 --> 00:51:55.140 Peter Bedard: All right, well my dog my first dog was really my Harry Potter our my familiars wiccans would call it right that that.

00:51:55.470 --> 00:52:09.600 Peter Bedard: That connection was so much there with me and this wonderful animal and I still I tell you he's been he's past four or five years ago, and I still see him I see him at the corner of my eye, I feel his presence.

00:52:09.630 --> 00:52:10.710 Georgeann Dau: You love my dog.

00:52:11.400 --> 00:52:14.580 Peter Bedard: My dog that I have now will do something and i'll be like.

00:52:15.990 --> 00:52:17.400 Peter Bedard: Where did you get that baby.

00:52:19.320 --> 00:52:19.650 Peter Bedard: Right.

00:52:20.730 --> 00:52:23.970 Peter Bedard: You know I really truly believe that my great grandmother.

00:52:24.000 --> 00:52:38.010 Peter Bedard: My mother's mother who didn't speak a lick of English, who died a couple months before I was even born, she has always been someone that I just feel this connection to we know very little about her.

00:52:38.640 --> 00:52:46.260 Peter Bedard: My mom couldn't talk to her as a child, she died when my mom was a child or not, when my mom was a in her 20s so.

00:52:46.800 --> 00:53:03.360 Peter Bedard: This woman that no one had much of a connection to my mother, my grandmother's mother right, I feel her so much I say her name her name is jenna wi fi I feel her name and i'm like wow.

00:53:04.230 --> 00:53:05.880 Peter Bedard: Well, I know anybody to.

00:53:06.300 --> 00:53:12.690 Peter Bedard: she's uh she's Polish i'm i'm French with a little German, Polish mixed in there, so yeah.

00:53:13.650 --> 00:53:15.810 Georgeann Dau: isn't that great to close with a.

00:53:16.620 --> 00:53:18.210 Peter Bedard: While I wasn't close with her.

00:53:18.240 --> 00:53:20.130 Georgeann Dau: My great grandmother I know yeah.

00:53:20.730 --> 00:53:42.780 Peter Bedard: But I feel her it's like I don't know how or why but her energy I just I just know her great there's just this experience with her that is really important to me and I feel like she guides me and I feel like when I don't know what to do, I lean into these I just lay back and I.

00:53:43.890 --> 00:53:49.320 Peter Bedard: I just welcome them and allow them and acknowledge them and they don't like speak to me in the moment.

00:53:51.090 --> 00:53:52.170 Peter Bedard: Like one of them, shows that.

00:53:52.350 --> 00:54:02.940 Peter Bedard: I wish they did I have friends that have that experience they sit on the edge of my that edge of their bad and they're like okay well I don't get that I wish I did, but I feel their presence.

00:54:03.540 --> 00:54:11.010 Peter Bedard: And that presence is always comforting to me, and in that comforting I feel like oh way I know the choice to make.

00:54:12.390 --> 00:54:17.190 Georgeann Dau: You know i'm the time goes so fast on these shows it's amazing.

00:54:18.240 --> 00:54:23.940 Georgeann Dau: Be but I always like to end in prayer so we have a couple of minutes left but um.

00:54:25.950 --> 00:54:33.360 Georgeann Dau: I just want to mention that I know that you work with tease so you work with herbalists your inner biologist.

00:54:33.660 --> 00:54:34.440 Peter Bedard: I do.

00:54:34.470 --> 00:54:36.360 Peter Bedard: yeah I was just showing you one of them.

00:54:37.620 --> 00:54:38.550 Georgeann Dau: happy today.

00:54:38.820 --> 00:54:40.140 Peter Bedard: I am happy.

00:54:40.740 --> 00:54:43.530 Georgeann Dau: yeah that's so great Peter and.

00:54:45.450 --> 00:54:50.880 Georgeann Dau: it's great and it's so if someone wanted to connect with you what's on the back of the book here.

00:54:52.680 --> 00:55:05.970 Peter Bedard: Well conversions healing I believe gosh and I remember I haven't looked at it in a while, but my brand is convergence healing and they can find me on Facebook through convergence healing that divine the instagram scaling.

00:55:06.060 --> 00:55:09.060 Peter Bedard: Greg and find me convergence healing calm.

00:55:09.270 --> 00:55:10.380 Okay, good too.

00:55:12.060 --> 00:55:15.480 Georgeann Dau: And you know next week, we have.

00:55:16.770 --> 00:55:27.360 Georgeann Dau: i'll see you next week and we have another great show next week and Peter I can't say thank you enough for saying yes you're a treasure, it was really wonderful to be with you here.

00:55:27.960 --> 00:55:29.790 Peter Bedard: Johnny are super cool I love you.

00:55:29.790 --> 00:55:34.950 Georgeann Dau: and love it so you're great, so let us send in prayer would that be okay with you.

00:55:35.280 --> 00:55:37.230 Peter Bedard: These are love it yeah okay.

00:55:40.830 --> 00:55:41.760 Georgeann Dau: loving God.

00:55:43.320 --> 00:55:56.040 Georgeann Dau: You fill things with the fullness and hope that we can never comprehend, thank you for leading us into a time where more of reality is being unveiled for us all to see.

00:55:57.270 --> 00:56:06.240 Georgeann Dau: We pray that you will take away our natural to temptation to cynicism denial, fear and despair.

00:56:06.660 --> 00:56:14.250 Georgeann Dau: Help us to have the courage to awaken to greater truth greater humility and greater care for one another.

00:56:14.640 --> 00:56:33.810 Georgeann Dau: Maybe we place our hope in what matters and what lasts trusting in your eternal presence and love knowing good God that you hear us better than we are speaking we offer all of these prayers and more in all of the Holy names of God amen.

00:56:35.880 --> 00:56:39.660 Georgeann Dau: Peter Thank you everyone for joining us tonight.

00:56:40.800 --> 00:56:42.900 Georgeann Dau: Thank you, I love you.

00:56:43.920 --> 00:56:49.890 Georgeann Dau: And we ask abundant blessings for you good night see you soon.

00:56:53.190 --> 00:56:53.880 bye.

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